Jan 11, 2012

rollercoaster

 30 weeks and counting!
Awfully strange to think that if this little man showed up when Kale did he would be here in less than two weeks.
Last week at my doctor appointment they did my glucose test and long story short I failed it.
And also my calcium and iron levels were low.
Great right?
So two days later I went in for the three hour blood draw to see if I have gestational diabetes.
Needless to say that the entire weekend I was waiting for results I was a complete and utter train wreck.
I got the results back Monday afternoon and they told me I am borderline, meaning I was high on the first hour blood draw but within limits for hours two and three.
I spent a lot of time crying, moping around the house, and feeling sorry for myself.
Feeling like maybe my body just wasn't meant for pregnancy.
Then it just hit me.
Things could be a lot worse, and I need to get over it.
I am so blessed that I have had a healthy pregnancy up to this point and I had to realize, that this is just a minor set back.
Gestational diabetes can be very well controlled and you can have a healthy pregnancy.
I think back to when Kale was in the NICU in rooms with babies half his size that were hooked up to countless machines, and I realize how blessed I am, if this is the only thing that goes wrong with this pregnancy I should be one happy momma.
Why is it always so easy to get so caught up in your own self pity?
I remember reading an article on how your mind set controls the outcome of physical things.
Meaning if I am down, depressed and feeling sorry for myself all the time of course my body is going to respond to that in a negative way and only get worse.
So, I decided that I am going to have a positive outlook on this whole thing, do my absolute best to manage it, and hope for the best. 
 I know that the Lord has a hand in everything and that things are the way they are for a reason. 
I know that things may get hard, but I also know without a doubt that I am never alone.
I am so incredibly blessed to have another sweet baby boy on the way, I truly cannot wait to have another addition to our family, and as long as he is healthy that is all that matters.
Thanks for reading.
Till next time.

3 comments:

  1. I failed my glucose finger poke test too Em. I understand how emotionally and physically draining that is, I'm sorry ;( Your a strong woman and I think this pregnancy will be a good one! You look great!

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  2. Aw, Em, I'm sorry! I admire your positive outlook. Good luck with everything! Love you.

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    1. Thanks you guys, you are both so sweet!

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